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Monday, April 5, 2021

Handful Of Flowers

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Random things led me to post a collage of my recent photos on tik tok:

https://www.tiktok.com/@anttiluode/video/6947555636368461061?lang=en&is_copy_url=1&is_from_webapp=v2 (My tik tok sucks so i took it down)

 Thinking about the music, I chose a old sad favorite. "Looking For The Summer" By 

Chris Rea. 

Man. I have been sentimental / sad lately. I actually am feeling sadness in a way that 

can even make me cry. It has been a while since I have felt this kind of low key sadness. 

My feelings were pretty extreme pre surgery.. Now they are more low key.. 


But anyhow. The picture of the wilted cacti flowers inspired this song together with the 

memory of sad years I walked around, alone, listening to that song.. 


What does that song by Chris Rea mean to me? Well, my folks were really well off 

for a long time. We had a big house in the country. On those years I was listening to Chris 

Rea a lot.. Then my folks went banktrupt and that song became kind of a memory of 

better days. Days before I turned 18, days before my folks went bankrupt and the world turned to shit. 


I guess now, that feeling reminds me of my ex and my former marriage. This piece is about 

my marriage. That I suspect will be the one and only relationship I ever had. 


Handful Of Flowers 


we were lovers 

we were hot 

you and me 

on a mountain top 


dancing to a 

different tune 

but despite all 

i still love you 


i don't care if you 

don't love me 

cause you were one 

that will always be


my only lover 


i have a handful of flowers 

that wilted long time ago 

i have a handful of flowers 

waiting for me to blow 


but no 


ill move to the country 

buy a cheap house

i'll put a sign on the front 

this is where i'll die 


my heart may it wilt 

and die in my chest 

until there's nothing left

but a shelf left of me 


we were lovers 

we were hot 

you and me 

on a mountain top 


dancing to a 

different tune 

but despite all 

i still love you 


i don't care if you 

don't love me 

cause you were one 

that will always be


my only lover 


i have a handful of flowers 

that wilted long time ago 

i have a handful of flowers 

waiting for me to blow 


does it matter, does it matter if i live or die 

does it matter what happened to your love 

because the memory of it is like a seed in my mind 

that i'll take with me when i


 go 


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The project is made with FLstudio v 20:

http://www.image-line.com/downloads/flstudiodownload.html

 The FLP file is at: (317 Handful Of Flowers.zip)  


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