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Friday, July 31, 2020

Plastic Angel



Vocals 



Instrumental



EDIT: Stuck in edit hell. The project got so heavy it was not rendering right. I bumped 
the violin to a stem so it would render right. Also, I had a lot of problems with distortion 
depending what asio driver I rendered it with. The rickenbacker bass line was also very clunky 
which made just quantize it 100 percent and then bump the swing to 100 to compensate. 

I know the lyrics are a dumpster fire. It is essentially two distinct ideas clashing. 
The Christian "glory.." part and "plastic angel" part. Plastic angel initially came from the 
thought that since I am now brain damaged. My only prospect of being with a woman would 
be with a prostitute. Which is not something I have done. But it is the truth. 

Most likely I will never have another relationship. 

Thinking about the prostitute made me think about how sad profession it must be. 
To have sex with people who are damaged in one way or another, or desperate.
They probably cry a lot. Yet. Jesus hung with prostitutes.  

Thinking about it it is about as ugly as the scene in midnight cowboy where the
main character is asked to worship with the person who hired him. Guilt. It is about 
the guilt of being a john and guilt of being a prostitute. It is about faith that the sin
is forgiven. Yet somehow you have fallen from grace.

Plastic Angel

plastic angel 

plastic angel 

she is my angel now 
that i am all alone 
she is my angel now 
a muse to my song

she is a fallen angel 
and i am no saint
she is a fallen angel 
crying in the night 

(latin choir) 

plastic angel flying by 

plastic angel flying by so high 

bye 

my plastic angel 

fly 

glory to the God who made all things
all kings all wings that were made to be flown 
glory to the God who made all things 
forgave our sins baby you are beautiful 

i am seeing angels on the sky 
plastic angels 
flying 
by 

fallen angel 

fallen angel 

plastic angel 

plastic angel 

fallen angel 

she is a fallen angel 
and i am no saint
she is a fallen angel 
crying in the night 

(latin choir) 

fallen angel flying by 

fallen angel flying by so high 

i see you smile 

plastic angel 

dont 

cry 

--

The project is made with FLstudio v 20.7:


The FLP file is at: (83 Plastic Angel.zip)

Thursday, July 30, 2020

I think am on the line for the surgery now.

I had a meeting scheduled with a psychologist to assess if I am capable of having the surgery already. It was supposed to be at the beginning of next month. According to her she sees no reason why the surgery should not happen.

So I think I am on the line now. My neurologist told me after this visit I would be on line if the psychologist thinks I am capable of having it psychologically.

Maybe I could have the neuralink chip implanted to my head while they do it:

https://www.tesmanian.com/blogs/tesmanian-blog/neuralink-matrix

:D

I actually wrote a story in the beginning of this year about having a chip implanted to me which would cure my epilepsy - BEFORE knowing I had the cavernoma:

https://www.reddit.com/r/shortstories/comments/eig3o2/sf_in_to_the_blue_my_next_decade/

I think writing the story in part inspired me to get my third MRI which finally led to the discovery of the cavernoma which we now know (through video eeg) is the reason for my epilepsy..

In the story I had a brain surgery. Now I am having one in real life too.. Only the neuralink chip is missing.. Elon? :D

Antti

Tuesday, July 14, 2020

Nothing Can Keep Us Apart

I took down the vocal version. It can be rendered from the FLP file though.



Vocal


Instrumental


Nothing Can Keep Us Apart

i am just a fool 
just a fool with a fire 
in my heart 
i am just a fool 
just a fool in love with you

nothing 
can keep us 
keep us 
apart 

because 
i feel you 
in my 
heart 

life is just a sacrifice
it goes quickly by 
up in the heavens door 
we will meet again
and i will take your hand 
and you will take mine too 
and we will be once more 
one

i'll set this violin in fire 
the sparks will rise to the sky 
you can call me crazy 
and baby 
that's alright

nothing 
can keep us 
keep us 
apart
i can 
feel you 
in my 
heart

dying 
is easy 
it's life 
that is hard
when 
you have a fire
in 
your heart

what can i do 
i am just a fool 
with a fire 
in my heart 

what can i do 
i am just a fool 
in love 
with you 

life is just a sacrifice
it goes quickly by 
up in heavens door 
we will meet again
and i will take your hand 
and you will take mine too 
and we will be once more 
on

i will set this violin in fire 
the sparks will rise to the sky 
you can call me crazy 
and baby 
that's alright

(repeat) 

--


The project is made with FLstudio v 20.7:


The FLP file is at: (55 Nothing Can Keep Us Apart.zip)