Thursday, January 31, 2019

Synnyin Suomeen




Vocal




EDIT:

I added small tweaks.

Instrumental

The song from yesterday with a little less personal delivery and no
distortion in the mix. I also tweaked with the mix and instrumentation to make it sound better.

About the song: 

After brief bout of super tiredness and some hallucinations (hypganogic?) last weekend, I now have pretty bad tinnitus now probably due to the epilepsy meds or damage to my brain. (Last weekend could have been a new kind of a seizure I dont know, my reality is becoming weirder and weirder.)  So my days of making music might be numbered. 

The docs do not seem to care and I can not take my epilepsy meds because
my grand mals are so severe. I do not think Ill get better anymore.  This song is about that. (they wanted me to wait to talk about it on my next 
phone call with neurologist week and a half from when it happened, the 
only doctor in a huge hospital at night was sympathetic, but said he understand nothing about epilepsy) (This is the reality of socialized health care in Finland) 

But Ill do it as long as I can. 

Translation to the lyrics after the Finnish ones. 

SYNNYIN SUOMEEN 

c#minor a b c#minor 

Paskahousuna joo mä synnyin tänne, 
maahan meidän, esi isien. 

Isä teki töitä, minä oli ylpee
joo tuli kasari oltiin rikkaita. 

Pian olin poika joo ja katoin vaissii
seinällä oli pomon perse joo.

c# C#sus4 
C#sus2 
Synnyin, synnyin Suomeen. 
c# C#sus4 
C# 
lottovoittaiaja olin minä juu. 


Sitten tuli lama tuli konkka kultainen 
isä sekä äiti sai tuomion. 

Isä meni linnaan, yritin olla isä 
eihän siitä mitään, tullut totta kai. 

Masennuin ja mietin, itsaria yksin
veromies iski, oli ysäri. 

KERTOSÄE 

Aloin tehdä musaa, taisin olla hullu 
kirjoitin inter-nettiin runoja. 

Ihme kyllä löysin netistä mä vaimon 
sen piti olla jenkki, jee tottakai. 

Joo me oltiin köyhii, mutta oli rakkaus 
kaikki näytti hetken, hyvin toiselta.

KERTOSÄE

Sitten minä sain, sain tän pirun taudin 
siinä meni paljon, paljon vuosia. 

Paska tuli housuun niinkuin silloin joskus
kun satoi lunta ja oli lokakuu. 

Synnyin suomeen, kuolin suomeen 
maahan tähän, esi-isien. 

--


Born In Finland 



Shit in my pants, I was born here 

land of our forefathers. 



Father was working, I was proud, 

yea the eighties came we we were rich. 



Soon I was a boy and watching Vice
on my wall there was the ass of boss yea (springsteen). 

(CHORUS)

Born, born in Finland 
I had won in lottery yea.
(Finnish saying it is like winning in lottery 
to be born in Finland.) 

Then the recession came, bankruptcy golden, 
my mother and father were sentenced. 

Dad went to jail, I tried to be father. 
That did not work of course. 

I got depressed and thought of suicide alone
the taxman struck, it was the nineties. 

(chorus) 

I began making music, I guess I was nuts
I wrote poems to the net. 

Miracle happened and I found a wife. 
She had to be American, of course. 

We were poor, but we had love. 
Everything seemed very different for a while. 

CHORUS

Then I got this damn disease. 
That took a lot, a lot of years. 

I shat my pants like back then once. 
When it was snowing and it was October (I was born) 

I was born, I died in Finland 
in this country of our forefathers. 

--

The project is made with FLstudio v 20.01!
(UPDATE)


 The FLP file is at: (2 Synnyin Suomeen.zip)  
(I began from beginning) 

It uses:

Izotope trash 2 (google it, I used the trial version) 

Wednesday, January 30, 2019

Mixing with speakers..

I did not notice my latest crappy song had distortion..

I took it down.

Antti


Sunday, January 27, 2019

Deals With God (2019)



Vocal version on soundcloud (higher quality)




Vocal




Instrumental

#remake #pop 

Deals with God (2019)
***************

fallen off the wagon 
drinking again 
in the cat house 
with your friends 

but all you can see 
is the one you miss 
when you are coming on down 
coming on down yeah 

nothing that you do 
can change her mind 
you are coming on down 
you are coming on down son 

nothing really matters
your life is in tatters 
you are coming on down 
you are coming on down yeah 

Making deals with God 
begging please 
fallen down 
down on your knees 

feeling down
feeling low
you gotta go on 
on with the show

if beginning was the end
and the end was beginning
what would you do now
would you do

If God came through
with a second chance in life
what would you do now
would you do

Deals with God
begging please
fallen down
down on your knees

fallen off the wagon 
drinking again 
in the cathouse 
with your friends 

but all you can see 
is the one miss 
when you are coming on down 
coming on down yeah 

making deals with God
begging please
fallen down
down on your knees

--


The project is made with FLstudio v 20.01!
(UPDATE)


 The FLP file is at: (1 Deals With God.zip)  
(I began from beginning) 

It uses:

Spitfire Audio Labs: (The pads / soft piano / Choir)

https://www.spitfireaudio.com/labs/


Saturday, January 26, 2019

Young wiz has some wisdom..



I do not like making bass filled beats any more due to my epilepsy, but what this kid
is talking about rings true. . Basically he is talking about wall of sound. You want all
the instruments to be in their own space. The way he approaches it with eq.. Seems
like a really great way of doing it..

Granted I have been barely thinking about it (which you can hear in my beats).. But all
music going back to orchestral music has been doing the same thing.. Trying to have
a different space for all different instruments.

Antti

Got rid of all videos but one..

Just kind a pointless to have videos that no one watches..

I never was good at it anyway and making them is stressful which triggers my epilepsy..

Antti

About the post this morning..

I deleted the crappy electronica thing I uploaded this morning.. My mind was not in it. I was
thinking about this post I made to epilepsy subreddit..

Furthermore, there is no need for me to do the daily uploads anymore if they suck. I have done that
for years already.

Antti

Thursday, January 24, 2019

For The King




EDIT: I began KVR (musicians) thread about the song.. And got a couple
suggestions.. First of all.. My orchestral instrument placement was wrong.

This should have been obivious.. Fast googling orchestral instrument placing
brought me countless pictures of how real orchestra is placed.. Then I was told
the vocals at the "For The King" parts is too loud by lessera. So I toned them down..

I also took off the "For The King" in the spoken chorus before the final chorus
leading to the "For The Fool".

One thing I do not think I can fix is have a classically trained voice as suggested by
metamorphosis.. I just.. Suck at singing..

Lyrics to "Under A Distant Star"

 #symphonic

For The King

see the king
in his glory
ride
like the wind

to a battle
that is waiting
to the smoke
to the ash

we fight
for the king
we live
for the king
we sacrifice
for the king
we die
for the king

see the smoke
see the fire
where men
used to stand

broken
like sticks
wiped
off the map

CHORUS

see the king
in his glory
ride
like the wind

to a battle
that is waiting
to the smoke
to the ash

high
is the price
of pride
for the king

mowed
to the ground
squashed
like a bug

we fight

we live

we sacrifice

we die

we fight
for the king
we live
for the king
we sacrifice
for the king
we die

for the fool

--
The project is made with FLstudio v 20.01!
(UPDATE)


 The FLP file is at: (93 For The King.zip)  

It uses:

Sforzando by Plogue:


Is playing  Sonatina Symphonic Orchestra by Mattias Westlund
that you can download at:

http://sso.mattiaswestlund.net/download.html

The instruments used are written in instrument headers.

Wednesday, January 23, 2019

Brief Respite



#soundtrack #chill

I got a new free thing to play with from Spitfire Audio Labs:



I just made this simple little thing.. As a kind of first test..

It is very pretty sounding.. The piano was off.. So for the arpy piano I used
neopiano mini and just used cutoff filter and flstudio convolver to achieve
a little bit similar sound..

On the slower parts it works beautifully..

The project is made with FLstudio v 20.01!
(UPDATE)


 The FLP file is at: (92 Brief Respite.zip) 

It uses:

Spitfire Audio Labs: (The pads / soft piano / Choir)

https://www.spitfireaudio.com/labs/

Neo Piano mini:

Tuesday, January 22, 2019

Waiting For God



#pop #retrowave

Lyrics to "Drop Out"

Inspired by my life that has turned into waiting for Godot the play.

Endless discussions with my wife about mortality etc.

I guess every life becomes this way at certain points. With me it has
been endless for a while now..

Waiting For God

hey child
yes you
with the glimmer
in your eyes

hey child
stay a while
and you will learn
how to

Wait for God

Wait for God

Wait for God

Wait, wait for God.

What if this
what if that
what if you
could turn back

lose yourself
find your way
find yourself
in the dark

all alone
in a car
hoping for
another start

without hope
trying to
see it all
make some sense

Waiting for God..

Waiting for God..

waiting for God..

Since the days of Pharaoh's..
We have been doing the same..
Its is the thing that drives you..
Very slowly insane..

Just waiting.. For God..

Keep waiting.. For God..

Just waiting.. Just waiting.. For God...

Keep waiting.. Keep waiting.. For God..

God! God! God!

What if this
what if that
what if you
could turn back

lose yourself
find your way
find yourself
in the dark

all alone
in a car
hoping for
another start

without hope
trying to
see it all
make some sense

Waiting for God..

Waiting for God..

waiting for God..

paradise so far
so far away
(repeat)

--


The project is made with FLstudio v 20.01!
(UPDATE)


 The FLP file is at: (91 Waiting For God.zip) 

It uses:

Drop Out



#synthpop #retrowave

The project is made with FLstudio v 20.01!
(UPDATE)


 The FLP file is at: (90 Drop Out.zip) 

It uses:

Monday, January 21, 2019

Come On / Tears Of A Loser



Vocal



Instrumental

Yes.. Third day I am tweaking this. This time I added lyrics and 
got rid of some of the melodies playing at the same time.. 

#coffeehouse #easylistening #jazzy

Tears Of A Loser

tears 
of a loser 
crying 
all alone 

come on 

come on 

come on 

it is not that bad

tears
of a loser 
crying 
all alone 

your life is like a shoe 
you keep on biting 
but you can not keep it down 
but you keep on trying 

come on
come on 
it is not that bad

just try to keep it down 

just try to live another day 

come on, come on 

come on, come on 

your tears are beautiful 
maybe God wants to see you cry 

tears of a loser 
maybe that is all there is 
to your life 

maybe you were born 

to cry 

--

The project is made with FLstudio v 20.01!
(UPDATE)


 The FLP file is at: (89 Tears Of A Loser.zio)  
(87 is missing because I was working on orchestral vocal song yesterday that I will
probably never release)

https://drive.google.com/open?id=11qw-AQWlbq7r5_WyDRbpoH05Wy0z6xdT

It uses:

AGML Lite 2 (Free) (I do not think I ended up using it though.. ) 

http://www.amplesound.net/en/download.asp